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|Sunday, February 13th, 2005|
|Why am I even writing a journal entry?
So....blah. Tonight was fairly uneventful. Well, today was mostly that way. Didn't go to the dance tonight but I didn't miss it much. I got my concert write-ups done for the mus. department which is a good thing and listened to really vulgar rap music which I developed a peculiar affinity for tonight. Case in point: "Nann Nigga" by Trick Daddy and Trina....a very vulgar piece of the rap literature in which Trina expounds upon the following issues:
[Trina] You don't know nann hoe uh-uh Don' been the places I been Who can spend the grands that I spend Fuck bout 5 or 6 best friends And you don't know nann hoe uh-uh That's off the chain like me That'll floss the thang like me On a awful thang like me You don't know nann hoe uh-uh That sell more ass than me You know nann hoe That'll make you come like me Nigga you don't know nann hoe uh-uh That don' tried all types of shit Who quick to deep throat the dick And let another bitch straight lick the clit Now you don't know nann hoe uh-uh That'll keep it wet like me Make it come back to back like me Lick a nigga nut sack like me Now you don't know nann hoe uh-uh That'll ride the dick on the dime Who love to fuck all the time One who's pussy fatter than mine Bitch you don't know nann hoe'
I hope no one is offended by this; it's just a fun song. Pretty crazy, huh? I love TRINA, though. Seeing me recite these lines made my roommate Seville crack up and laugh as I did my white boy dance thing. I also downloaded this really awesome remix of Kelis's "milkshake," but that's old hat. So, to do list: Don't fail Physics or AP Stat Do FAFSA soon Ask Ms. Dey about (fingers crossed) Sinfonia Concertante and playing some Shostakovich for Humanities project I don't know what I'm doing up right now....this is ridiculous. I want to start writing in my journal again...but oddly enough that is what I say in all my other entries. Oh and Marni if you're out there please take a new, hot picture of me to replace the frightening one of my hair nightmare last year. Thanks for going to the Amadeus concert it was fun. Oh, and Jason, I love the new livejournal design. I'm out, Peace Current Mood: bored
|Sunday, August 29th, 2004|
|It's been a long time gone
Hi everyone that reads my journal! I know that you've been gnashing your teeth in anticipation of my next journal entry and voila! here it is.
First things first: I'm pretty sure now that I want to do Music Education as my major in college, so that leads me to believe that NCSA or FSU would be two very possible schools for me to get into that would service my needs. If Music Ed. doesn't work out, I'm thinking about psychology to back that up. I'm pretty confident with my decision to be a Music Education major; I really like working with kids and also I want to get a lot better at viola so hey why not kill two birds with one stone right? Anyways, yeah majoring in this sounds pretty good to me and fulfilling. Yay I get to drop AP STAT so I can practice more but Mrs. McKnight was questioning if that would make me ineligible for some nice scholarship...I gotta to chit-chat with little 'ol Lela about that sometime. I don't want to do STAT though; I don't need any more math and I hate math. That's really too bad. I never hated it until I came here haha.
The Dean has actually been very nice to me this year. She was very helpful throughout the whole ordeal where Jason and I were accused of doing something that was totally falsified. I'm glad that that imbecile of a security guard named Don was sacked. I was satisfied to see the other day that a new guard was being trained.
Now, the relationship: Jason and I broke up earlier today. Now we're back together. This is very confusing, I know, but I'm glad we're back together. I would have been able to get over him, but if he still wanted me in spite of me fucking up then I couldn't say no. I love him so much, I really do ya'll. I know that there are many naysayers out there but you guys can think whatever you want to. I know that many of you have said that I'm not good enough for him, but what exactly is that supposed to mean? You have every right to judge me, but if Jason respects me and wants to be with me then as being his friend you should respect his judgement. It really doesn't bother me what any of you say about me. Yes I know that I slept with a very notorious gay guy at our school last year, but if you remember correctly half of the gay population did. And I'm willing to bet that the people that you all think Jason is worthy of slept with him too; in fact I know that they did. So if any of you want to come discuss this with me I will be glad to. Yes I fucked up a lot last year but don't we all? I'm trying to really make this work with Jason because I love him and I hope that you all have the decency to respect me for that. I've only tried to be nice to everyone at the school; I try not to judge people before I meet them but I feel that that is what has been done to me. I love Jason and there is nothing that is going to change that. Even if we would have went through with our decision to break up today, I would always love him. So that is my two cents about people and our relationship. I'm not mad at anyone I assure you, I just want to be given a fair chance. You don't have to like me, just treat me with respect and I'll do the same. I don't try to steal Jason from any of you so don't think of me as an obsessive, unworthy bitch. That's all I have to say about that. That's everything that I'm going to say about that. And....i'm done. Boo if you're reading this I love you...can't wait till this weekend! Current Mood: chipper
|Saturday, July 31st, 2004|
|Chillin' like a villain
Hey everybody! I can't wait to be at school next Sunday! This weekend has been great so far. I spent last night with Jason. We ate and saw a movie in Sparkle City then went to su casa to spend the night. We saw Napoleon Dynamite and it was wonderful. Monday is Carowinds. I'm so excited about that and also that I have a lesson with Ms. Dey Tuesday. Well I don't have much to say other than that except that every thing is going very good except for the dad and stepmom getting along at home but oh well that's nothing new. I'm not gonna let it affect me though. I got to go though. Bye.
|Thursday, July 29th, 2004|
|It's raining it's pouring
Hey ya'll! Today is a shitty, rainy day but i'm happy. This morning began with me going to the doctor for my school physical which was fun. I know that sounds stupid but the doctor was very expedient the whole thing only took 5 minutes and she's pretty cool. For the first time i really didn't feel conflicted about being told to drop my pants for someone that I'm not really acquainted with. I'm sure all you guys needed to know that but it was a hallmark for me. Jason and I had a great time last night for the half hour that we were together. My friend jillian was totally tripping and that provided the entertainment for a short while and then started to get on my nerves. Seeing what an ass she made of herself on the trip back makes me wary of using drugs. I'm just happy that i got to see jason last night. Oh! also today i went to the library and this asswipe wouldn't let me rent anything because i had a $3.45 late charge. Anyways, I return to my mode of transportation for a sec to look for some spare change to find that i was totally broke. So, i head back into the library to tell him that i can't check anything out. Luckily my friend Heather who works in the library was there to cover for me while asshole was in the back doing something and she checked me out. Yay for understanding librarians....i know though that i am utterly irresponsible and that i should have had the money to pay but ya know...she was cool about it. Now I've just been watching the movies that I checked out from the library. I'm probably gonna practice some later when i go to my mother's. I'll probably be online around 10 again. It's really beautiful outside (in mayo of all places lol) right now...it's raining hard while the sun is shining. Hopefully there will be a rainbow...wow that sounded corny but i'm serious. The simple pleasures of mother earth. Jason if you read this i can't wait to see you tomorrow. Call me later. Vaarwel vrienden!
|Tuesday, July 27th, 2004|
|amused by watching my stepmom trip on her "antidepressants"
Hey ya'll! Well today was fun. I got a new bow. The rest of today has been comprised of me practicing for approximately 3 hours and watching my stepmom pill-trip around the house which is very comical. She said that she hadn't taken her antidepressants for two days and just had to double up. OOKKKAAAAYYYY....Anyways...some of her enjoyments while high are eating chocolate ice cream and snuggling up next to an electric blanket; this is no doubt more accomodating than my father in bed at the moment. Which I don't want to think about. So yeah camp opportunity was a lot of fun last week. I was actually able to elicit a few hugs from some of the campers. This little black girl named Keyondra was like in love with me i'm going to miss her a lot. I'm definitely going back as a counselor next year. Woot woot to graham for having my back all week! My grandmother told me this morning that my picture was supposedly in Sunday's herald-journal (something about Camp Opportunity) but I haven't seen it yet. I miss Jason incredibly and can't wait to see him on Friday. Oh and not to mention that the time i spent with him on saturday night was fabulous! Friday night is going to be the bomb (to be very 1998ish of me) Jason is the cat's pajamas, the bee's knees, all that and a bag of tater chips...etc. and more creative terms of endearment! Holla boo! I really can't wait for school to start back but i'll probably regret thinking that once i realize what a true pain in the ass it will have to be to get up for class. I'm slowly but surely getting things sorted out for college. I think that i want to minor in music performance and major in either psychology or sociology. Anyways....i'm sure thinks we'll just "work themselves out" with a helluva lotta work on my part. Well sorry i can't think of anything more to write for this journal entry....it's a slow road to livejournal recovery for an amateur that left it for a week Current Mood: content
|Saturday, July 17th, 2004|
|Coming to appreciate myself! *Tear*
Lol sorry about the sappy title! Anyways, today was a wonderful day! The majority of the wonderfulness(?) came from Jason and I's date. It was so great. First we ate at this cute little secluded park, then we went over to the Greenville Zoo and walked the nature trail, then we went to Barnes and Noble and then we went to the mall for a while. We saw his house sometime in between all of that. Oh yeah, and we yelled at a few construction workers and slow drivers. Anyways, I had the best time ever Jason. Thank you. You help me keep my sanity while I am not having bibles thrown at me and being condemned to hell. I can't wait to be at school for so many reasons! I'm kind of excited about camp opportunity tomorrow, but I've yet to see if that will dwindle as the week goes on. I love kids so it shouldn't be a problem. It was wonderful to see my sister today. She just got back from the beach and it's so good to have her back home. She's gay, too, so she is somewhat of a last bastion of hope for me in my hometown except for all my friends who accept me. I'm really happy though right now. Sometimes I doubt myself because I care about my parents so much; but it is definitely time for me to grow up and become my own person. Well, gotta run. Jason, I'm going to try my best to sneak a phone into camp opportunity! They won't take me alive! Word to ya motha! Current Mood: cheerful
|Friday, July 16th, 2004|
So today was cool...well, except for the discussion that my dad and I had. He basically took me shopping to weasel me in and then tried to convert me into a lifeless heterosexual carbon-based unit. Oh btw, not to mention that he joked with my stepmother a few days ago that he hoped to buy me a prostitute! That's really sick!...Anyways.....I can't make him understand that I like myself and that I can't change who I am! Aagghhh! He went on to say that I was sick and called me chicken shit! Tasty hmmm? Yep, good times, good times. One more reason why I can't wait to be at school with people who don't give a rip what I am and care about me because I am a good person. Most of all i'll be there with my novio maravilloso! My main squeeze who is the bee's knees! So on that note of ecstasy, I am going to sign off! yay i'm really getting into this live journal thing! See you guys later!
|Thinking about Peaches and my sore ass
So, yeah, this is my first LiveJournal entry. Wow. I'm making a fool of myself. Anyways. Tonight was semi-eventful. I was talking with my "boo" when the stepbrothers asked me if I wanted to go with them to their aunt's house. I thought about it for a few seconds until I realized this means that they were wanting to get drunk there (there aunt is a friendly lady who gives out liquor to young people) and I realized I did not desire to get drunk tonight. I've been thinking a lot today and realized that the influence of alcohol would distort this. Anyways, so tonight's events kind of disturbed me. As you may have read on Jason's live journal a few days ago, he and Roxanne haven't exactly hit it off, probably my fault. They had a small row tonight that I can't help but feel responsible for. He signed off after their argument and I may have called about 3 times to make sure that he was okay. He said that something was wrong with his mother. I hope she's okay and that Roxanne did not hurt his feelings. Her concern for our (Jason and I's) relationship stemming from our (Roxanne and I's) friendship was the basis of what upset Jason. I know that he will be okay but I wish that I could see him right now just to make sure. First of all let me say to everyone that I know Jason and I sound crazy about each other and we are. Though it's probably aggravating every one of you, it isn't us and we will promptly listen to your concerns and settle down in a few weeks; that is to not say that the heat burning in our loins will be lessened for each other. Wow, that was a bit too much j/jk. Anyways, I want my boo to be okay and to say that Roxanne didn't mean what she said; she was just looking out for me a little too much. She nor anyone else in Govie Domain knows yet what you mean to me or how much I care for you. So let us encourage each other not to listen to naysayers. Thank you for encouraging me to do LiveJournal; I actually do feel better now! Joy! You guys put me some more friends on here....Later. Oh, if anyone is wondering why my ass is sore it's because my younger stepbrother launched his foot into it. He seems content to torture me 24/7. Yes, school will be a blessing when the time for it arrives. Adios! Current Mood: loved